Out of focus, out of time
Feeling nervous for no reason. Every task takes longer and feels harder than it would be for normal people. RESET RESET RESET. Every day is kinda the same.
Philosophy PDFs pile up in the folder "Learning". Programming projects are covered in dust and quietly beg for a commit. Demands for me are higher. No time.
Reading 5 books at the same time looks like a good idea. Resurrection of the knowledge. I am tired of constantly feeling like I am the dumb one. RESET RESET RESET.
There is so little purple color in my life. The only pens I have are gray and black. Wait, is this a white marker? How much longer will it take for me to surrender?
I am out of focus, out of time.