Only now realizing how bad my anxiety is
After I dropped out of university and stopped doing assignments, I have got some time to reflect on what the person I am and what I need in my life. I went to psychiatrist and was diagnosed with ADHD-C and anxiety disorder. I only now realizing how bad this was affecting my entire life and now if I won`t do anything it will get worse. This thought scares the shit out of me. And also makes my anxiety worse...\
Yesterday I started to take Lexarpo and Lyrica. I really hope there will be no serious side-effects and it also stresses me out. Thoughts about taking anti-anxiety meds causes anxiety... This is why I need them even more.\
Yesterday my girlfriend invited me to the club party. Several monthes ago I did not mind to go, but now I feel a little panicky for some reason. Hope nothing goes wrong. Muscle tension hits like crazy.\
Wish me luck with this life.